Sunday, 6 December 2009

Goodbye my companion...

Assalamualaikum wbt and Hi everyone,

It was my closest companion for 3 months. Whenever I went to sleep, I made sure I didn't impede on my companion for fear it might be damaged. I was very careful with my daily activities just to make sure that my companion is 'safe and sound'.

But last Wednesday, I bid farewell to my closest companion, my Hickman line. It was removed, for what I hope will be the very last time. Insha Allah. It had been literally part of me for the last few months, playing a pivotal part in my treatment.

Whenever the doctors need to take blood, or administer my Chemotherapy drugs or any other chemicals for that matter, the Hickman line has made it possible without the need to prick me with needles.

This is how it appears like attached to the body.

At the moment, I am recovering well from the high dose chemotherapy and transplant. My appetite has been brilliant, and my energy levels are improving with time, alhamdulillah. I've also been going out a lot more than I thought I'm able to, and I attributed that to the presence of my dad and my sister, Aiysha, both of whom are currently in UK for 2 weeks. Their presence has certainly provided me with the extra motivation to get out of bed and show them, Aiysha in particular, of what UK has in offer especially during the winter season. Although Aiysha doesn't seem to enjoy the weather so much I reckon.. =)

Aiysha's first ever visit to United Kingdom, accompanied by Dad...

Apart from plenty of rest at home, I am also scheduled to attend regular clinic appointments to assess my response to treatment, with the next one being on the Wednesday 16th December 2009. I am also due to have a scan done 3 months after my high dose chemotherapy, one that sends shivers down my spine, considering what happened with the previous scan I had after finishing my ABVD treatment.

But life must go on, and until that time arrives, I must tell myself to remain optimistic and positive. Believe in Allah, His plannings, and to not waste my time on uncertainties.

Before I sign off, I'd just like to extend my deepest gratitude to those who made the effort to visit me at home, some even from outside of Sheffield. The visits just kept on coming even though I'm no longer in the hospital, and I thank Allah for showing me the beauty of ukhuwwah (friendship). Not forgetting those who dropped by with messages of support and prayers via my blog, Facebook as well as text messages. I'd like to share with all of you this very moving hadeeth Qudsi (divine hadeeth).

“Allah will say on the Day of Judgment, ‘O son of Adam, I was sick and you did not visit Me.’ He will say, ‘O my Lord, how could I visit You, when you are the Lord of the Worlds.’ Allah will say, ‘Did you not know that My servant so-and-so was sick and you did not visit him? Did you not know that if you had visited him, you would have found Me there?’ Allah will say, ‘O son of Adam, I asked you for food and you fed Me not.’ He shall say, ‘O my Lord, how could I feed you and you are the Lord of the Worlds?’ And Allah will say, ‘Did you not know that My servant so-and-so was in need of food and you did not feed him? Did you not know that if you had fed him, you would have found that to have been for Me?’ ‘O son of Adam, I asked you for water and you did not give Me to drink.’ The man shall say, ‘O my Lord, how could I give You water, when You are the Lord of the Worlds?’ Allah will say, ‘My servant so-and-so asked you for water and you did not give him to drink water. Did you not know that if you had given him to drink, you would have found that to have been for Me.’
(Muslim, Hadith no. 4661)




jangan bersedih dikala kamu meminta kupu-kupu yang cantik, Tuhan berikan ulat yang jelik
kerana nantinya ulat tersebut akan berubah menjadi kupu-kupu yang lebih indah dan berharga. kerana kamu rawat ulat itu dengan penuh kasih sayang

jangan bersedih dikala kamu meminta warna-warna indah dilangit, Tuhan berikan hujan badai yang kencang menerpa
karena setelah hujan badai itu berlalu, akan ada pelangi yang sangat indah di langit untuk di nikmati

jangan bersedih dikala kamu meminta kedewasaan diri, Tuhan berikan banyak masalah
kerena setelah berhasil melewati sebuah masalah, kamu akan mendapatkan kedewasaan, kekuatan serta ketegaran diri

jangan bersedih dikala kamu meminta kebahagiaan, Tuhan berikan peristiwa yang membuat kau lelah dan menangis
karena setelah tangis dan lelah, kamu akan merasa lega, bersyukur dan lebih menghargai hidup

mungkin jalan yang sekarang kita hadapi merupakan tanda sayang Tuhan kepada kita
Semoga Tuhan menghapus segala dosa-dosa kita melalui segala sakit dan susah yang Dia kurniakan pada kita dan Insyallah tuhan akan memberikan ganjaran, rahmat dan barakah untuk kita berkat kesabaran dan kesyukuran kita…Amin!!!

joegrimjow said...

ehem ehem
sape tu bg panjang2 tu?

rini blaja sumthg
hidup kena berani untuk gagal

pekataan gagal tu 'complicated'
sebab tu ramai yang memilih untuk menjadi si penakut

el nino said...

moga ko jd inspirasi diri ak brother mas...

Mas Afzal said...

Najiahtul : That was one very nice and motivational piece of writing. Thank u very much.

Joe : Boleh kongsi dekat ur blog la tuan Pres =)

Cha : Insya Allah, in every way possible hidup kita adalah pada memberi kepada org lain.

Anonymous said...

Assalamualaikum wbth,

Life is all about living...If we do not have to struggle then when can we put to good use all the attributes Allah has bestowed upon us and test their effectiveness i.e our intelligence, perseverence, humility and gratitude.

Best of all, Life is also about rewards - I've got mine in the form of you, my very courageous son..keep up the good work!..mama

JeP said...

Glad that you're keeping up with the times and technology chemoboy. Good to see that you've finally gone 'wireless'.


iman_insyirah said...

semoga sentiasa diberi kekuatan oleh ALLAH S.W.T...innAllaha ma'as sobiriin...;-)

MS Rizal said...

Salam Mas Afzal..

Simpati dengan apa yang menimpa Mas Afzal..
Daripada apa yang saya baca daripada blog ini Mas Afzal adalah seorang yang tabah.
Saya insaf juga, bahawa kekuatan kita tidak lama. Jika Allah mahu menariknya kembali maka ianya akan berlaku.

Semoga Mas Afzal terus tabah dan rajin-rajinkan menulis. Blog ini juga boleh menjadi sumber merebut pahala.