Wednesday, 3 March 2010

Will You hear me?

Do you sometimes ask yourself; I've been praying that Allah gives me excellent results in my examination, but why did I still fail all my subjects?

Or that you and your partner have been asking from Allah day and night to be blessed with your own child, but yet years gone by and you are still waiting for it to happen?

Or that you have never failed to make invocations after each of your obligatory prayer, that Allah grants you cure from your disease, but yet the pain and suffering you endure remains???

That you've been praying so much, but all the effort seems fruitless? And deep in your heart, you ask yourself, frustratingly;

"O Allah, my Creator, what have I done that you are not granting my invocations?"

Thee alone we worship, and to Thee alone we pray for help...

When I was in the hospital back in November 2009 for my high dose chemotherapy and stem cell transplant, these thoughts kept creeping inside my head. They were worse when I was all by myself in the room, in pain and feeling tired. I remembered vividly,

When I had to resort to performing my prayers on my bed as I was too weak to get up, shaytan whispered,

"What is the point of troubling yourself to pray to Allah, you are in such a state but yet Allah is not listening to your prayers!"

When I got up early in the morning to pray my Tahajjud, there shaytan came and whispered,

"Look at you Afzal, tired and weak. You've not improved one single bit from your illness. Is it really worth waking up this early to pray to Allah?"

When I stood by the side of my room's window, looking down at the city of Sheffield from the hospital, shaytan came and whispered,

"Afzal, it's been a year now and here you are still stucked in the hospital. Allah has forgotten you and your prayers."

Ya Allah, I seek refuge from You from the evils of shaytan!


It is during these difficult moments, that I seek strength from our beloved Prophet's saying in regards to making invocations:

مَا مِنْ مُسْلِمٍ يَدْعُو اللهَ عَزَّ وَجَلَّ بِدَعْوَةٍ لَيْسَ فِيها إِثْمٌ ولَا قَطِيعَةُ رَحِمٍ

No Muslim supplicates to Allah with a Du`a that does not involve sin or cutting the relations of the womb,

إلَّا أَعْطَاهُ اللهُ بِهَا إِحْدَى ثَلَاثِ خِصَالٍ

but Allah will grant him one of the three things.

إِمَّا أَنْ يُعَجِّل لَهُ دَعْوَتَهُ

1. He will either hasten the response to his supplication,

وَإِمَّا أَنْ يَدَّخِرَهَا لَهُ فِي الأُخْرَى

2. save it for him until the Hereafter,

وَإِمَّا أَنْ يَصْرِفَ عَنْهُ مِنَ السُّوءِ مِثْلَهَا

3. or would turn an equivalent amount of evil away from him.

O Allah, how Merciful are You! I promise myself to always supplicate to You, for only You can grant cure to my ailments and none other.

Ad-du'a silaahul mukmin. [Du'a is the weapon of the Believers]

I'd like to remind myself, and to those reading my humble writings, that should such evil thoughts sprung to mind when we supplicate to Allah, remember Prophet Muhammad's warning:

"...the supplication of the servant will be accepted as long as he does not become hasty." The Prophet was then asked,

"How does one become hasty?" The Prophet then said,

"He says, `I supplicated and supplicated, but I do not see that my supplication is being accepted from me.' He thus looses interest and abandons supplicating (to Allah)."

Never abandon asking from Allah. If it is not Him, then NO ONE else can help us in this world, and in the Hereafter.


Anonymous said...

u make me stronger day by day mas! keep praying! coz i'm not giving up to pray for u too~

Najiahtul Syafiqah Ismail said...

kadang-kadang, bukan Allah lupakan kita, tapi ada pemberian yang lebih besar dari permintaan kita yang Dia nak berikan.. =)

joegrimjow said...

keep praying
that is our special weapon

VioletOrchid said...

saya teringat pesanan seorang kawan, sesungguhnya dalam diri setiap hamba terhadap Tuhannya itu harus ada dua perkara:
1. Takut
2. Harap
jangan hilang takutmu pada Allah, jangan sirna harapanmu daripada pengampunannya.
May He guides you and relieves your burden.

Anonymous said...

Salam, Mas
We often pray for what we want, but Allah, the beneficient, the Knower, knows what we need. Tidak semua yang kita hendak kita akan dapat, tapi Jangan putus asa dengan rahmat Allah.

LiTtLe SoLdieR oF aLmiGhTy said...

salam, thanks for your words.. abg banyak memberi semangat kepada saya secara tidak langsung..

Allah bless and protect you always.. :)

rhapsody LiN said...

keep praying bro. dun lose hope and with the doa it can strengthen ur hope. iA

putri said...

keep praying and we will keep praying for you.Hope we all do not fall into the category of hastiness.We believe in Allah and with the faith that we are blessed with, somehow we becomes stronger as we keep on supplicating,du'a because it is only through du'a we can communicate to Allah..
it is only through du'a we can feel the wisdom of Allah.
To Dr Mas Afzal,
please be strong and I hope you are not too weak to write your wonderful thoughts and message.


Anonymous said...

Dr. Mas Afzal,
u make me more stronger. ur wrinting inspired me. thanks you doctor!

i wont lose hope w ALLAH mercy. I know He always be there. No matter when what o watsoeva. You can do it doctor.

I, myself a medical student who before was thinking on giving up just because i failed in a paper.but, after readind ur toughts, ur story, i became stronger,

doctor. dont give up. ALLAH always listen to you :)

Atiq said...

Syukran Jazilan ya Akhi... Thanks alot for the reminder. Teruskanlah jalanmu utk menyebarkan da'wah ini. Ujian Allah kepadamu telah terbukti kepayahannya.. tetapi jalan kepayahanku (ujian Allah) sedang menanti utk diri ini.. mungkin suatu hari nanti.. maka kini ku perlu bersedia.. InsyaAllah. InsyaAllah, InsyaAllah

Anonymous said...

manusia sekadar berikhtiar dan berdoa, tuhan yang menentukan. "Kun Faya Kun".

be strong mas :)

-jihan's papa.

IN-faz said...

salam...dah x thu nak comment pe???terasa y amat2 sgt...hanya doa y mampu sy berikan kpd saudara masafzal...

keep strong ---->>>>

Sharifah Rashidah bt. Syed Ahmad said...

Brother Mas,

Allah akan sentiasa menguji umatnya sama ada dengan kepayahan atau kesenangan..Kepayahan atau kesengsaraan menyebabkan kita fikir bahawa Allah tidak mendengar kita atau Allah itu tidak wujud (na'uzubillah) manakalah kesenangan pula menyebabkan kita fikir kita tidak perlukan Allah dalam hidup kita atau kesenangan itu datang dari usaha kita sendiri..(na'uzubillah). Keep up the faith, bro!!

Anonymous said...

Salam brother Mas

Very true what Kak Pah said (Sharifah Rashidah...I miss u). I wanna share this doa with u...Illa rafa'allahu biha darajah.

Translate lebih kurang mcm ni :-
Tiada kesusahan ini hanya Allah hendak meningkatkan darjat kita disisi Nya.



Neo Rantissi said...

so true, thank you very much for the reminder brother. i'm impressed by your will and spirit in doing da'wah even in your state now, may Allah bless you always with the best of the best!

Anonymous said...

Kadang-kadang kita segan berdoa, kerana kita samakan dengan meminta-minta, sebagai mana kita meminta dari manusia. Akan tetapi, dengan meminta dari Allah lah kita menyatakan ubudiyyah kita kpd Allah, dan kita digalakkan berdoa, walaupun kehilangan seutas tali kasut.....

mawar said...

Salam Mas Afzal,

Apakan daya Mas,kita hanyalah hamba yang lemah dan hina. Kita hanya boleh berdoa, terpulang kepadaNya untuk memperkenankan dengan caraNya.
We pray and pray humbly. Praying means asking not demanding..there's a big difference there right?
Namun, Dia Maha Penyayang, Maha Adil,Maha Mengetahui, Dia tidak akan sekali2 menzalimi kita. Kita diperintahkan mempercayai dan mengimani yang ghaib, inilah salah satunya. Secara nyatanya Mas sedang menderita sakit, tetapi yang ghaib, yang kita tak nampak adalah keampunan dan ganjaran yang disediakan. Kuatkan hati dan keyakinan Mas. He knows what we know not.
"This is the Book; in it is guidance sure, without doubt, to those who fear God;
Who believe in the Unseen..." alBaqarah 2-3

Nurul Farhana said...

thank you for the reminder ya akhti.
Your blog reminds me how to be strong in life.
May Allah guide us along the way.

Anonymous said...

Salam Adik Afzal,

May Allah keeps U in his bleesings

-moomy of three

Mohd Shahnom Ismail said...

Terus berdoa ... :)
Kami di Johor sentiasa mendoakan mu Boss

Anonymous said...

Allah loves hearing your prayer, He made you keep on praying...

p/s:I might not be as tough as you, but I know God loves you, thats why u r the chosen one... :)